letthelightin

So its been about 6months since I have written. Prom is the current news and you know now that it is gone and graduation is soon going to be gone what is there to drive on...why do I need these little events that seem so significant at the time to please me. I guess thats why I am so happy when I am doing something bad or excilerating because it keeps me at a state I need to be at in order to maintain healthy breathing. I feel like this now but I am sure that in two minutes or as we speak I am changing my whole idea on this. I only want this life to be one of complete satisfaction and fullfillment in whatever I choose to do.

Hey there so this may be the last that you hear from me... I am leaving on a Jet plane, don't know when I'll be back again, actually I do it is July 27 if anyone was wondering. I am not sure if I am coming back though, I have a gut feeling that something may go terribly wrong, plane crash, terriost attack wrong. I haven't felt like this sense the tree git me... yeah pretty shitty feeling. Anyways I just wanted to tell you all that I love you because you really never know when the last time your going to see/talk to someone will be. I have three effing bags maybe its too much but oh well. Hopefully I will see some of you in July... keep your nights open. XOXOX

I care now! I am grounded until I can get my brother to Universal Studios or until September SO since i am a poor motherfucker i will be missing everthing great in life. I guess it's not that bad but i am really sad because i was looking forward to seeing some shows man and there are so many: Brighteyes, Alkaline Trio, Andrew JAckson Jihad (which i can see later but still), and I think it may include Edgefest. O well... So pretty soon i will be off to Ohio. ok life just got better this second... my little niece Alyssa bought me a matching Huffalump aka Elephant thing from Whinnie the pooh bear...awww i love her so much. Well i haven't read someones lovely poetry to me but i am sure that i will love it and cry.
mmm bye.

so far summer vacation has been... Weird. Bad things keep happening to me and I just don't care enough to worry about them. That is really not like me, i am i changing? Hey you out there have i changed since you have known me? Well summer school doesn't suck entirely to much and life is HOt here in Phoenix. I just keep thinking that this all going to be over soon, this time in your life when you really don't have to worry. I am going to be slapped in the face when i graduate, i want to care but as i say above i really don't. I just enjoy watching movies and listening to my Many CD's(which is weird because i usually don't have CD but thanks to ppl like sean and trey...and the library i do). I started the hefty project of cleaning/organizing my room today. I got caught drinking and it wasn't too bad. I think i am going to lay off it for awhile, except when i need it to fall asleep (like last night). At first i felt guilty but now i don't it's a lot like a sleeping pill right, and you have wierd ass dreams (another story another time). I have read to books in two days. My life is movies, music, and books. I made my Dad, mary, and vincent come home from their trip in california, i am such an ass. I only feel bad for that thing because it was stupid and unnecessary. Well have a great life it may be a while till i speak with you again. Oh if your out there PLEase post the beautiful pics of Seattle if you have them.
Thanks for listening.

what the hell i date the kiddies i teach wood stuff to.
Justin!!

That heart around your face was not put
there by myself. You are a 20 year old guy who
works in the Technical Theatre part of
Xavier/Brophy theatre. You are an under paid
hero.

Who would you be if your life really really really sucked and you had to end up working as a teacher at xcp?
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what the fuck i'm getto?

This is the funniest thing I have ever seen. Especially the parts about Brandon. Some of it is true, which is really scarey.

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• TJ is your lucky star.
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I hate how you realize how much your life as been altered due to changes that you had no control over. I can't take this pain from lose. My life can be described only by this word. I lose everything that has a meaning. I have to abide by someone I don't even know let alone think i should even give two seconds to. My relationship with my Dad is nonexist because of it. I wonder how life would be if the computer was never invented. someone else would have come along. Our lives on Earth together our almost over and we don't have any clue who each other are. I wonder if he even cares...I do.

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Avril
your a punk that cant quit smoking

sometimes i effing look like her!

Beer


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Man this day sucks.

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	High
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

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